Fourth Form of Madness

Earlier this week I had a blogging crisis.  Some lovely person from the Ukraine had decided to embellish all my blogs with hidden embedded code – in the techy geeky world of my hubby this is known as malware – malicious code.  And I never even noticed a thing 🙂 The first I knew of it was when hubby dropped me an email at work to say that he been working for the last 6 hours on my blog page to clean it up and gave it the all clear.

It did get me thinking though, that sometimes it is easy to resemble the malware blog page model in real life.  How much malicious coding have we taken on board, either voluntary or involuntary, that we then operate from, most times from a totally subconscious level.  What constructs are lurking within us that pull our strings like we were puppets?  It’s hard to say as we are all rather like icebergs when it comes to these issues.  There is the insy winsy part of us existing in the conscious world existing as the tip of the iceberg, and then there is the large hunky chunky murky subconscious floating along in the darkness of the water, the massive majority of the iceberg.

I have often heard life described as an adventure, I believe that adventure is to delve into the subconscious part of your being with the courageous heart of an explorer, open to all experiences, come what may.  There are many ways to start having a conversation with this part of yourself, but none of them use words, this is not the language of the subconscious.  The subconscious loves to speaks in many other ways, and invites you often to listen.  It speaks though mythologies (the central themes), symbols, synchronicity, dreams and feelings (yes those old things), intuition and many more ways.

It’s popular to think that perhaps you shouldn’t get stuck in exploring this part of yourself, that you should transcend it.  But it is impossible to transcend this part of yourself.  Bear with me a bit and I will try to explain.  All of us have pretty much done the “ultimate” transcending to be able to say “this is me” in the conscious realm.  To transcend something means to go beyond the meaning of something in the conscious realm and find a higher knowledge, deeper knowledge.  To know things in the conscious realm, they must exist in time and space.  The body exists in time and space, and therefore  you can know it, in a segment of time you can know that form as you.  But the mind does not exist in time and space (I don’t believe the brain to be the same as mind).  The mind is a formless, bodiless structure.  It can not exist in time and space.  In any one segment of time you would not be able to say , this is my mind, here and forever, this is me.  Therefore to have any concept of who you are (in terms of your mind) in the conscious realm, you must transcend yourself, to arrive at a concept of you.  Concepts are great but they are just concepts, abstract.

The subconscious is an invitation to return to a “truer”, more “unfettered” version of you.  It’s an invitation to sink deep into the murky, dark water and surrender to what you find there.  This descension is a necessary journey which allows you to deconstruct the “ultimate” yet rather false transcending you have already done.  It is here where you will start to learn all those things that you have squirrelled away, sometimes on purpose, sometimes unconsciously, that now pull your strings in the conscious world.  However, unlike the malicious code embedded in my blog page, these things do not need to be removed, it is enough to have awareness of them.  To see them in all their raw beauty (yes beauty).  Awareness gives you choice.  If you know these things have the power to pull your strings, you can then decide if you want them to.  To me, this is true freedom, a kind of freedom that is open and accessible all.  Happy journeys 🙂